What really knocks me out is a book, when you're all done reading it, you wished the author that wrote it was a terrific friend of yours and you could call him up on the phone whenever you felt like it.
Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them - if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.
I feel more and more that this book has enthralled me.
It just entices me in ways i cant even begin to comprehend, so i cant really put it into words.
This book has me wanting to be a catcher in the rye.
The feeling of the book spills out to my life now more than ever
if you've read it then you might know what i mean.
Honestly, i don't wish for a single thing in my past to be different right now.
All of you I've ever met or just talked to randomly are forever engraved into me
All of you, have made me the person I am.
Whether you see it as a good or bad thing is only a reflection of yourself.
you interpret things the way you thing so if it is negative,then in retrospect you are a self corrupting person.
But i digress, thank every single one of you, those that hate me, love me, used me, or don't even know me, I'm grateful to you.
I hope that I can instill the lessons you've brought me unto anyone that is willing to listen and take advice.
No matter what any of you that read this will be a fond part of my memories of my life
and I will hope to see you all around at some point in time.
email me call me or whatever you like just a hello from you will make my day.
"What I was really hanging around for, I was trying to feel some kind of a good-by. I mean I've left schools and places I didn't even know I was leaving them. I hate that. I don't care if it's a sad good-by or a bad good-by, but when I leave a place I like to know I'm leaving it. If you don't, you feel even worse."
I think this is how i feel right now, now that I'm leaving i don't really think anyone will let me leave with a feeling of a goodbye, I feel like I've just been passing through.
Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.
I'm gonna miss her the most i dont know why.I dont think we ever even seen eye to eye its like we were just a few steps away from being on the same page.
"I was half in love with her by the time we sat down. That's the thing about girls. Every time they do something pretty, even if they're not much to look at, or even if they're sort of stupid, you fall half in love with them, and then you never know where the hell you are. Girls. Jesus Christ. They can drive you crazy. They really can." VACB
Monday, September 28, 2009
damninique(cont)
im starting to think the only reason i post on here is to correspond to something you have to say
your post always end up putting me in a writing mood
intellect only stemsmore intellectual thought right?
well either way im kinda glad
thanks for giving my brain work
now im not just rotting away
your post always end up putting me in a writing mood
intellect only stemsmore intellectual thought right?
well either way im kinda glad
thanks for giving my brain work
now im not just rotting away
damninique
Don't let your mind get to you.
You think things are going horrible for you, well guess what?
They just might be.
That's life, that's what you chose when you decided to become a free individual,
take your decision and outcomes as a gift from your past self. It's what you wanted you wanted to be your own person. Don't betray yourself by going back to a safe routine force your way through things until you change things to how you like it.
Everyone has homesickness, sickness of where they're at, but it takes work and time to overcome all of it because your the one who makes your home.
You are the only one who can make a safe and comfortable place for yourself when you've left your old safety.
you can only depend on yourself.
no one can make things better
they only make things familiar.
It's okay to feel nostalgic and miss things but the instant you succumb to your fears is the time when you are going to become truly unhappy with yourself.
Everyone criticizes themselves, we're human after all
but that stage of the thinking you have right now is a human characteristic to strengthen yourself, don't be one to let your resolve for something better weaken so easily you are stronger than that, at least that's what i have been led to believe.
After all is said and done, and the door closes behind you at night you have yourself
you have to be happy with your decisions and actions, basically you have to be happy with the person your becoming.
It was never going to be easy or all fun and games
its a struggle that you have to come out on top of
and you may have people that help and support you but they cant do anything for you that you couldn't do yourself
your stronger than you think
so don't be so easily defeated by your worst enemy, yourself
ill believe in you even if you don't
its just my nature :]
"This fall I think you're riding for - it's a special kind of fall, a horrible kind. The man falling isn't permitted to feel or hear himself hit bottom. He just keeps falling and falling. The whole arrangement's designed for men who, at some time or other in their lives, were looking for something their own environment couldn't supply them with. Or they thought their own environment couldn't supply them with. So they gave up looking. They gave it up before they ever really even got started."
You think things are going horrible for you, well guess what?
They just might be.
That's life, that's what you chose when you decided to become a free individual,
take your decision and outcomes as a gift from your past self. It's what you wanted you wanted to be your own person. Don't betray yourself by going back to a safe routine force your way through things until you change things to how you like it.
Everyone has homesickness, sickness of where they're at, but it takes work and time to overcome all of it because your the one who makes your home.
You are the only one who can make a safe and comfortable place for yourself when you've left your old safety.
you can only depend on yourself.
no one can make things better
they only make things familiar.
It's okay to feel nostalgic and miss things but the instant you succumb to your fears is the time when you are going to become truly unhappy with yourself.
Everyone criticizes themselves, we're human after all
but that stage of the thinking you have right now is a human characteristic to strengthen yourself, don't be one to let your resolve for something better weaken so easily you are stronger than that, at least that's what i have been led to believe.
After all is said and done, and the door closes behind you at night you have yourself
you have to be happy with your decisions and actions, basically you have to be happy with the person your becoming.
It was never going to be easy or all fun and games
its a struggle that you have to come out on top of
and you may have people that help and support you but they cant do anything for you that you couldn't do yourself
your stronger than you think
so don't be so easily defeated by your worst enemy, yourself
ill believe in you even if you don't
its just my nature :]
"This fall I think you're riding for - it's a special kind of fall, a horrible kind. The man falling isn't permitted to feel or hear himself hit bottom. He just keeps falling and falling. The whole arrangement's designed for men who, at some time or other in their lives, were looking for something their own environment couldn't supply them with. Or they thought their own environment couldn't supply them with. So they gave up looking. They gave it up before they ever really even got started."