transient

It seems to people that once something is gone they think they will establish a stronger connection with said lost thing. In a sense if they really wanted that thing to be a part of their life they would of established a stronger connection rather than distance themselves.These things are two completely opposite feelings but they intertwine together very smoothly and for some reason parallel each other. This can be very confusing when the situation is explained to you beforehand but then it gives you time to think about things such as this. This can lead to a feeling of loss because of what your gaining by losing something. These things lead to a lot of confusion, thoughts, dreams. Dreams come about from certain events feelings and settings from your normal life, the transform into completely abstract visions to you to try and tell you things about yourself and your feelings that your normal effected self. Your dreams are the essence of yourself that hasn't been influenced by the people, settings, or external variables. They are the very core of yourself, your soul, and they tell you the inner mechanisms of yourself through a venue that it has more power in. Since it doesn't have any prerequisites towards speech, it sends messages through visions and feelings, throw in your imagination and you create a self structured sequence of images to send a message to yourself. With all this sometimes you realize that certain things stay the way they are because there wasn't enough effort on both parts and your not bitter because it taught you about yourself. I am leaving the cage and with the self realization that I feel no connection with almost all the people I know that are still in this town. Maybe i'm devoid or largely apathetic towards the people here, but I feel like everyone didn't really care either way and that i'm just passing. At least now i won't have to be stuck with the same blank faces wandering around like a ghost.