Wednesday, July 15, 2009

dwindlings of my sanity

What the hell is love?
who really knows what it is?
Fuck who has actually ever experienced it?
For those who think they have they probably haven't even come close because nowadays everything is based on looks and sexual appeal. Those that think they have have just settled for the best "easiest" be it all meanings of the term and also the safest. i mean safest because these people tried to find the quickest and easiest person that was a safe bet that wouldn't leave them
I bet that if you gave them the time they wouldn't be able to say anything in defense or if you asked them what love meant to them that they would have the one cheesy line saying
"its indescribable" anyone who can actually give me a good explanation of why they love someone please be my guest but i find it hard to believe anyone out here reading any of this would be interested enough to read this and respond but then again I'm pretty sure none of you will read anyways because your to busy off chasing a dream girl/boy that doesn't exist with the perfect image to you
and i mean when you think about them your first thought of someone thinking about a perfect person was them thinking about their dream person physically nothing else really

you fucking pigs get your goddamn mind out of the wading pool you shallow fucks
that's all it is nowadays
why do you think divorce is so common?
not that i hold tight to the religious act of marriage because religion is a different matter i will get into next time
but this goes back to how all of you gather around in your social cliques or circles talking about this kind of thing , girls i hear are pretty fond of the notebook and for some reason they go wild over it
it seems like a pretty lame movie to me
i mean did any of the ideals besides falsified love through Hollywood multimedia brainwashing get through to you?
i didn't think so
and guys? shit well i shouldn't even fucking start
its not even a movie less than a goddamn porno they base their girls off of
people are in it for the immediate gratification
so girls that give up
my advice is to stop and wait for marriage or whatever you think is a lifelong partner because half these guys out here are very good at the waiting game because of the brief trend of being a good girl came around
and i don't know how that even came about now its kinda
civility in public and freak in private
but still socially acceptable which to me is pretty sad that they cant help themselves because they don't want to be noticed by one person but everyone
same with guys which is sad to me no one has any respect for themselves
they just whore themselves out nowadays with trendy clothes to attract attention from the opposite sex
and game? what the fuck is game? why the fuck has it been so irreverently dismayed to being called game ?

its become completely falsified nowadays ,finding someone is completely falsified due to the fact that no one is truly trying to find anyone
all they want to due is throw a few nice words together albeit small short remedial words but a string of nice words none the less to get a few kicks
and even worse is when someone tries to get a bf/gf to attract attention from other guys/girls how pathetic is that shit?
all in all if your a true romantic and you are hoping for something good to come your way
fuck it theres very few of you and remember your scattered across the world
your more likely to come across someone with a cocktail personality who changes their personality to fit you
and if your good with that then fine all the more luck to you but that's a still slim to none chance

bitter society

Why is society decaying further and further into a social and mental decline?
with short quick catchy phrases in music now they are putting your mental expansion down .


Basically they're making it so three or four lines is all you can remember and that you become desensitized an amoralized until you can no longer put together a question in your head either selfishly about your self or three words long?
People in general are to pompous to realize the fact that they are getting dumber and dumber day by day.


Everything is now about instant gratification and simple quick pleasure
nothing has substance or meaning anymore
books nowadays suck
movies nowadays are all flashy graphics or simple twists
music is just tracks of retardation
fashion is someone following someone else who's doing the same thing

And conversation is completely dead. There's no such thing as conversation anymore, just small talk about quick and immediate events or personal problems that wont matter in a day because you'll just forget.


Theres really no talk about ideas concepts or philosophies
or anything with any meaning.


No talk of actual life just "hows the weather, what you been up to?,what happened last time we went to that party?" bullshit
honestly i dont see why i even speak anymore i find myself dwindling in that same downward spiral society is puttin us in and by society i mean the people that live, work, and thrive in it.


People have become so false they agree with someone just to fit in
or as the new trend is to be the most unique even though its just a trend to seem interesting and when someone actually meets you, you really have nothing to offer except the things that you found that someone else hasn't yet found and your list runs short fast
you really have nothing to say nothing you believe just these "pillows" of interesting oddities that you probably found by mistake but it worked for your individuality card

poeple really have no thoughts anymore or anything to themselves to truely show nowadays
the soceity as a whole we live in is nothing but mindless drones daintily runnin around thinkin that thier content with thier preset life
but then again ignorance is bliss i guess
someone today told me the reason im not happy or dont have a life is because i dont care about anything any more but why care about anything? what is there to care about ??? poeple arent truely poeple thier just factors in the big machine of society which has many cogs and springs meshing together where everything is already in a preset pattern so whats the point of caring about something that will always have the same ending its like watching a boring movie over and over again you want to see something new but it never changes
so fuck your society your ideals and morals
all that is fronted to you by your laws and rules and all that good bullshit

cash cows

Whats wrong with us today?
were all money hungry
theres no end to this shit
if you look at it we trade services for other goods
why not cut the middle man out and end the gross scrutiny of the economic system we all put ourselves into this shit and now we cant even dig ourselves out there will be a time where we eventually collapse as a whole and get started over again with a new rule and it will be more authoritarian because we as a society couldn't keep it together
were all slaves to a green piece of paper
now the ones who are really in charge are the ones who control money itself all theses systems are just scapegoats to what we really are we are just generators for those in control we are pieces of investments and cash cows
plutocracy is the word I'm looking for the rich run us we are financial slaves
with us being financially owned our thoughts are influenced by the money we are churning out
however much you spend is how much your worth now
you don't spend your worthless to society
doesn't matter if you had the money to spend in the first place

your society is bullshit

How do people come to standards of judging a person?
What justifies the sense of sizing someone up by their appearance or by who they are known as?
This is why we have so many "criminals". Not every criminal is innocent but i don't see why society sees it as they failed society but rather i see it as society failed them
we have our own governings in society outside of political issues which lead to much distress but, i digress, everything that society has set up: its standards imposed morals and religious backgrounds have sent us into a downward spiral there's no reason to base summations of a person solely on one aspect of a persons life you would have to get to know someone to asses the kind of person they are no one thing should make you who you are but still the society we live in is struck with bullshit like that


so when the homeless man that you think is a drug addict who was actually a war veteran plucks a girl out of the street you automatically assume hes trying to mug/rape her when in actuality he just saved her from getting hit by a car but people still rush to fight him and call the police on him and he goes to jail for saving the girls life


things in life aren't just black and white you cant lump everything into one or the other its simple logic that people know but ,choose to ignore when they say that things are right/wrong ,good/bad, everything is a yes or no answer.This doesn't make sense when all of society is backwards and has no bearings on its own rules because people have been dumbfounded by the ongoing ignorance of their own people and are now desensitized by this remedial repetition of practiced standards
they have so many double standards that they walk a tightrope that will soon enough become their noose

your a god hes a god shes a god

religion is the most puzzling thing I've ever come across.
There is no direction that it goes towards and none of the things you read are ever new, like there's no more lessons to be learned by the community you worship something with. For some reason everyone blindly believes what they were brought up to believe and that one exact religion, their religion is the only proper course of spiritual belief. This goes along with the idea that there is only one definitive answer, a yes or a no. I have never seen anyone who has made up their own beliefs based on their own personal spiritual search. i have met people that say they believe in god but most of society believes in god just because our colonial background was founded by Christians. people that just believe in god but claim no religious background do so because they aren't "devoted" or fully convinced of their cause enough to go to church so they claim no religious background with the hopes of escaping persecution for religious negligence.

have you been answered by a religious figure with another
question or the same statement they approached you with??

this is because they aren't even sure themselves of any answers they could give, they just preached what was preached before them and have no background thought on their words or
choice but rather they want to be saved because they fear death so the
idea of life after death is comforting since they have no idea what
happens after physical death. all in all i believe main religions to be nothing but smoke and mirrors because there is always an air of superiority with no backing and circular answers.